hmph. - 2005-04-20

meet us in the hotel lobby - 2005-04-18

aiya. - 2005-04-17

so happy - 2005-04-16

are you who you want to be? - 2005-04-12

Song: The Used - Buried Myself Alive

Sometimes I get baffled at how fast time flies. Seems like just yesterday, I was on the playground planting skittles and hoping a rainbow would pop out of the ground. Or stealing eggs from the fridge and attempting to hatch it in my closet. Much to my dismay, a week later, it rotted and stunk up all my clothes. Blah blah blah.

Anyway. Back to my point. It doesnt seem very long in my mind, but in reality, it was a decade ago. I don't want to end up the old hag who looked back on life and wondered where the hell did all that time go?

When I get angry, my blood boils and I steam from the ears. I hold grudges and I can hold them for years on end. But so many people come in and out of my life that sometimes I tend to lose track of my emotions and forget why I was so angry.

That's my problem. What's the point of wasting so much energy being pissed-off, when I'm just going to forget about it in the long run? All the pain and tears... easily forgotten with the passing of each new day..

Thank you, greater being, for this utterly strange weekend and for making me realize how freakishly dramatic I am.

Time flies too quickly for me to be on my PMS high 24/7.

So, maybe instead of being so angry all the time, I can just let it go from the beginning and learn to be a happier person. I mean, don't get any ideas, I still wouldn't go about pissing me off, b/c I'll still shit bricks and bash you with them but yeahh.. you catch my drift, right?

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