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2004-07-23 | 12:25 a.m. speedy gonzales
Song: Josh Kelley - Amazing
I've been doing a lot of planning ahead lately. It's kinda hard to grasp the fact that I'm a Senior this year and only two months from turning 18. I've been dreaming about this moment for... well, forever. How to make Senior year the greatest year, to make the most of the last year with all my best friends, planning all the awesome trips we're going on, the dances, the parties, the goodbyes... Hell, I've been thinking so far ahead, I've narrowed down all my 500 prom dresses to two. I've bookmarked all the scholarships I plan on applying for. Finished winter clothes shopping. Started pondering Homecoming, Prom, snowboarding with John's family during winter break, roadtrip to Louisiana for crawfish for Spring Break, Taiwan with Ruby in June, and a cruise to the Caribbean with all the girls in July. I've scraped together lists of supplies I'll be needing for college. Calculating how much I'll be spending if I moved to New York not including tuition. It's been a bittersweet summer, I guess. Friends leaving for college and realizing how close I am to all that as well. My grandma is leaving tomorrow. We were eating our final dinner tonight and all of a sudden she burst out crying. It was really painful for me to watch and it put me in a bad mood. Later, my dad sat me down and told me that it'd be a million times worse when I leave for New York. That he'd bawl b/c his baby girl will only come home twice a year. For winter and summer break. And, if I happen to snatch an internship.. well, bye bye to summer break. That made me even sadder.. how homesick I would be. How much pain I would put my family and myself in. I'd like to think of myself as independent and very well able to take care of myself but when it all comes down to it.. I'm still a daddy's girl and it's gonna be a bitch to leave. There's still time and fate might put me on a different course... But here I go again.. thinking ahead.
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